I Overcame My Addiction To AlcoholApril 5th, 2012
I have never been prouder of myself in my life. I can’t believe I finally did it! I have never completed anything in my life. Not college, not the military, I failed my marriage, I honestly failed at everything I ever tried and I was not good at being an addict to alcohol.
The staff and counselors here have been so understanding, they gave me a chance to prove myself; they gave me room to find myself and helped me to find happiness in my heart. Without them this new future of mine would have never been possible.
I have always had an “addictive” personality, whether it was cigarettes, pot, cocaine and then ultimately the substance that almost gave me a death sentence, heroin. Before I came to an alcohol abuse treatment I literally did not care about anything. I was lost and I really wasn’t even there so to speak.
No matter how bad I got, no matter how lost I was no one ever considered me a lost cause and no one ever gave up on me. I can’t imagine what I put my friends and family through and they are some of the most amazing and strong people I know. They believed in me, even when I had completely given up hope.
My family and friends are a blessing, they knew I could do it and they wouldn’t let me give in to my substance abuse addiction even when I wanted to. Eventually I believed them, despite myself, I believed them. I started taking responsibility for the things I had done. I started confessing to my family and telling them about everything I had ever done. To my utter shock and disbelief they didn’t hate me, they didn’t disown me, they were relived. They were relived that I had grown to a point that I could admit what I did, own it, apologize and take responsibility.
I had grown up.
Since that happened I have been so happy, like I have a new life and I know I will never make the mistakes I made before. I have such integrity and pride in myself and my life that I will never do anything to jeopardize those things again.
Today is one of the greatest days of my life; today my father said to me “I’m so proud of you son”. My whole life all I wanted was to make my father proud and to be a good son. I wanted to be happy and be true to my family and myself.
I am not going to lie, it was hard, from the time I made the decision to do the program, do it for myself and do it right I had to tell myself every day that I could do it, that I was tougher than drugs and that I was stronger than this addiction that had plagued me for years.
I can do anything I want to do, the pieces are all falling into place and I am happier than I have ever been. I didn’t think I could do it and I proved myself wrong and you know what? I am proud of myself!
Thank you thank you thank you, from the bottom of my heart, Thank you!